1 day ago
MOHO Blogs — Gay Mormon Blogs
-
Resurfacing a Queer Play in Homonationalist Times: Soon-Tek Oh’s Tondemonai—Never Happen! - Paper abstract for the 2024 Association for Asian American Studies Conference in Seattle, WA: Alan Williams finds evidence of the will to institutionalit...
-
Even though it be a cross that raiseth me - I'm not well connected, well known, or influential in the world. And I doubt I ever will be. I won't be as popular as many of the voices that speak out f...4 days ago
-
Where Everyone Knows Bear's Name - As my health improves and my legal cases wind down, I’ve begun applying for post-lawyer and law-adjacent jobs. Recently a friend suggested I reach out to...
1 month ago -
Delivered - What a train wreck of a year. So long, 2023. And good riddance. Today I’m thinking about the word “deliver.” What does it mean? Google says it means "to ...
3 months ago -
Say Something....... - *This post will be among several in a series tied to music and songs that permeated and enveloped stages in my life. I had pushed through the prior ...
3 months ago -
Mormon Hyms Triggers - I have attended Mormon church twice in the last few weeks. I've always claimed that if anyone knows how to put on a show that tugs at heartstrings it ...
2 years ago -
The Great Divorce of our Day - Wherefore, verily I say unto you that all things unto me are spiritual, and not at any time have I given unto you a law which was temporal. Doctrine and Co...2 years ago
-
10 Year Blogger Annivesary - Today marks my 10 year blogger anniversary. Wow, wow, wow! So much water under the bridge! Thank you for joining me these past 10 years on my vulnerable,...
2 years ago -
Breakfast in the Castro: Erasure as a musketeer says "Nothing to see here." - Me: Mibes, thanks for meeting me for a breakfast two days in a row!Mibes: You’re welcome. I’m happy to be here. How are you feeling? Me: I’m doing OK. I’ve...
2 years ago -
The One Where I Discover Why My Dad’s Utah Family Weren’t Mormon - Trigger warning: The following contains some discussion of sexual abuse. Sometime around 1890 at the age of 27 Jens Peter … Continue reading →2 years ago
-
On the Christianity of White People - It’s fashionable nowadays — at least in some circles in the media and social media — to talk about America’s “racial reckoning,” triggered by the death i...3 years ago
-
Who Is Still Here? - A quick show of hands. Who is still following this blog? (leave a comment)I know it's a weird question since the last time I posted was just over 5 ye...3 years ago
-
Where have all the good times gone? - Today is a day I sit and wonder, consciously dumbfounded and inept--"Where has all the good times gone?" In a world where everything is at your fingertip...3 years ago
-
At a Loss - I live in a world where my rights have to be voted on. Rights that have already been well established for any straight man or woman. If I want to marry...
3 years ago -
-
Blog Transfer - I'm transferring my blog to a WordPress-hosted site. If you're interested to keep following my writing, you can find me at: http://www.brokenlights.blog3 years ago
-
Even When He is Silent - "I believe in the sun even when it is not shining. I believe in love even when I cannot feel it. I believe in God even when He is silent." Carved into th...
4 years ago -
A Guide to Queer Dating at BYU - BYU has always been a difficult place for LGBT students. But when the Honor Code wording was updated, BYU administrators interpreted some ambiguity in th...
4 years ago -
LDS North Star Community. Conversion Therapy Rebranded - ***Trigger Warning*** For whatever reason, I’m still connected to the North Star page. Some of you may be familiar with them. They have been...
4 years ago -
Update - It's been a while. Brushing the dust off this old blog for a quick post. I've basically left the church. How could I stay and support an organization that ...4 years ago
-
A Manifesto: Speaking Truth About What Is Happening to America - Our fathers – literally, my father and my uncles – fought to destroy what we as a nation have welcomed into America. Tyranny. Claims of absolute power. ...
4 years ago -
Out Coming - Why do I want you to know I’m gay? It’s not the overarching facet of my life. But it’s also not a minuscule fact. It’s something I notice many times ever...4 years ago
-
When did I stop believing in myself? - It's been a couple of years since I've written in this blog. To be honest, I forgot it existed for a while! This blog took a twist to encapsulate my spirit...4 years ago
-
#BreakingJesus - This article is an invitation to understand faith transition and visually see what it might look like on the other side. For me, the context in which we a...4 years ago
-
Fifty years on - Happy Pride month to everyone! This June commemorates the Stonewall riots 50 years ago that helped catalyze increased rights for LGBT people in the US. It...
4 years ago -
Excommunication Anniversary - Six days ago was an anniversary that I almost let slip by without realizing it: ten years ago on June 14th I was excommunicated from the LDS Church. It's...
4 years ago -
-
Mormons and Tolerance of Homosexuals - [image: Image result for lds church's stance on tattoos] I was asked if Mormons couldn't just chill out with the gay thing. Of course, the question asked ...5 years ago
-
-
The Roommate Situation - After graduating BYU I went off to one of this country's great mid-west schools for graduate school. I'm talking about the University of Illinois, folks I...5 years ago
-
“Sometimes people use thought to not participate in life.” - Have you ever watched a movie, read a book, or witnessed something that was so life altering that you swear it was created just for you? In February of ...
5 years ago -
-
Just mind your own damn business - I was recently lurking on the Mormons Building Bridges Facebook group and somebody shared this blog post about a gay exmormons opinion about Tom Christop...5 years ago
-
Natural Ways to Relax When Life Hurts Too Much - Get Moving- Exerscie. Walk, run, bike, just do something. Get Outside- The outdoors always seem to help me. Getting some air and taking a walk takes my min...5 years ago
-
The Power of Testimony - I know that we who are queer are always stronger than we think we are. We are resilient and determined. Our love is stronger than our enemies’ hate. How do...6 years ago
-
WHAT AN END TO THE YEAR - I thought I’d cracked it. I genuinely thought that this was going to be the New Year where I got to see it in with the man that I love by my side. I got s...
6 years ago -
Things I Wish I Knew While Coming to Terms With my Sexuality - I heard someone the other day say "Everyone's a little gay." Haha for real though, isn't everyone at least a little gay? Been too long, I got too many song...
6 years ago -
Goodbye Bountiful, Hello Brine Shrimp! - Unrelated to the title of this post, I took a DNA test today! Jake's company, MyHeritage, produces these DNA tests that can tell you more about where you...
6 years ago -
Heartbroken - I'm going through the toughest breakup of my life right now. It's gotten so bad that I am having a tough time sleeping at night. So I'm back to the old blo...6 years ago
-
Finish the Paragraph I Started - I sent the following to my family: Ben, I expect a response from you too. I'm going to start a paragraph. Please finish it and send it back to me. I'm exc...
6 years ago -
Loss, Letting Go, and...Laughter? - *INTRO* Let me set this one up a bit. I'll do so with a few bullets you can skim through: - Last year, I was somewhat unhappy and unfilled in my caree...
6 years ago -
Gender and Transgender – III - Five years ago, I wrote a post about gender confusion and my dissatisfaction with the abbreviation "LGBT." I used that post to air a perceived grievance th...6 years ago
-
3 books - *Book # 1: "*The Question That Never Goes Away*" (which is: *where is God when it hurts?)* One of my all-time favorite bloggers, Jana Riess (over at "Flunki...
6 years ago -
Litmus Tests - This story bothers me immensely. Several women carrying pride flags embroidered with the Star of David were asked to leave the Chicago Dyke March, because ...
6 years ago -
Hello! - So I've just watched the Book of Mormon musical for the 4th time today - it still has me laughing in stitches throughout the show. I wonder if my friends a...
6 years ago -
Final Speech – President Addison Jenkins - Good evening everyone. Today is the last USGA meeting I will attend as president. Over the past few days and weeks I’ve been reflecting on the past two ye...6 years ago
-
Afloat (or Not) on the Cosign Wave - Boy, has it been a while since my last post! I hope you don't take it too personally--it has been several months since the last time I made an entry in my ...6 years ago
-
Reneged Promises and False Analogies - General Conference is that time, twice a year, when the highest leaders address the Church in 16 hours (16 hours!) of international live broadcast. Usually...
7 years ago -
New Perspective from a Gay Mormon - I am grateful I visit this blog in a very different stage in my life. I have grown in thought and belief. If I still prescribed to the same exact though...
7 years ago -
My Last Heartbreak - Even though I don't pursue men or act on the attractions that I have to other men, it doesn't mean that the feelings don't exist or that I don't develop st...7 years ago
-
2017: The year of moving on - Happy New Year! Nearly 365 days ago, I branded 2016 as "the year of being adventurous and trying new things." And in those 12 months, I'd say I succeeded...
7 years ago -
-
Growth - Growth of the human mind, soul, and spirit is an incredible thing. It can grow so much in a very short amount of time, or grow very slowly over a long peri...7 years ago
-
The Claw - Before you read further you have to watch this clip: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N-Esh4W3dfI Isn’t it odd the way our brains work? I have a photograph...7 years ago
-
-
reflective reflection - broken soaked in blood tears salt dripping off my face my hands dirt dust rust my broken heart soul mind searching for life pain reality i want eye want...
7 years ago -
Community, Communion, and a Vision of Zion - This blog post is part two of my Community of Christ World Conference Impressions. To read the first part of this blog series see here. This po...
7 years ago -
Say Something - I'm going to be honest, because I don't know what else to do. I apologize in advance because this wont be eloquent, and it won't be pretty. A ton has chang...7 years ago
-
The Smallest of Things - I have been stewing on this post since the Summer of 1994. Naturally, not literally this blog post since to my knowledge blogs didn't exist way back in th...7 years ago
-
Why Mormons March in LGBT Pride - June 26th was the fifth year we've marched in San Francisco LGBT Pride. It's one of the world's largest celebrations, with usually well over 500,000 peopl...
7 years ago -
Reflections on Fatherhood After Coming Out - *I published the following post on Father's Day five years ago, eight months after I had begun the process of coming out. The words I wrote then still r...
7 years ago -
Epilogue - I guess it's about time for my six-month check in here. Much has happened in my life in the last six months: I'm much happier, I'm dating guys, I'm find...7 years ago
-
Summer! - I've been home from school for about an hour. This summer just opened her eyes and is so full of possibility. Last summer was a big bummer right from the g...7 years ago
-
Six Years Out - Six years ago, I came out on this blog. It feels like yesterday and, simultaneously, a lifetime ago. It feels like yesterday that I started to brave the o...
8 years ago -
Bye & Stuff - Thanks for listening. I'm done writing about me. I don't care to listen to myself write about me anymore, so I ain't gonna. Off to one of my myriad other ...
8 years ago -
Finding Treasure Without a Map is a Great Thing - Maps. They've fascinated me for years. They're interesting things, right? I mean, think about the power a map can hold: it shows you where one place ends a...8 years ago
-
Lost Boy - These hazy bluish-gray days have painted a world to match the frequency I feel my soul has settled upon lately. Trees appear out of the fog like frozen...
8 years ago -
The Hardest Part - When I think of the future, I'm not sure what I see. I know there's a mission, there's college, but after that... solid career, marriage, family, finding...8 years ago
-
Right - I want to say that I was wrong. That they aren't related. Some people have been posting about the recent uptick (again) in gay LDS suicides, but also sayi...8 years ago
-
The Original TR - True Reckonings - In case you want to do some hard core back reading - I've made my original blog public for a while. truereckonings.blogspot.com8 years ago
-
Goodbye 2015, Goodbye Blog - It's not like I've been blogging much here, but I was thinking yesterday that I never shared anything about my amazing year. So here's a recap: New amazin...8 years ago
-
A Best Portable Ice Maker Is A Dream Come True For The Ice Love - Lightweight snow creators undoubtedly are a fantasy are available for individuals that enjoy snow in addition to gnaw the idea during the day. Groups of pe...8 years ago
-
A Good Life Worth Preserving - So much has happened...and my desire to keep a record of my experiences has returned to me. It was seven years ago in April of 2008 when I started th...
8 years ago -
-
Church Policy and Tender Mercies - On November 5, 2015 Deseret News published an updated section of the Church Handbook which draws a hard line between the church and homosexuality, especial...8 years ago
-
Enough is Enough! - I cannot begin to express how disturbed I am over the new Church policy regarding Same-Sex couples and their children. I cannot sleep I am so disturbed. Th...
8 years ago -
Alive. Hurt. Confused. Lonely. - Today I've had a lot of people ask me how I'm feeling. I can sum up my emotions in the four words that are the title to this post. I am alive. I am hurt. I...8 years ago
-
So so so sick of all the doublespeak - http://www.sltrib.com/news/3144035-155/new-mormon-policy-makes-apostates-of8 years ago
-
Trapped - Happiness was the bait. Loneliness was her trap. “Never go alone,” his mentor reiterated. He had his trusty sword at his side the whole time. At first, eve...8 years ago
-
Endowment - These are the ties that bind But I don’t know what that means. Initiated into another realm, I felt more alone. An outsider granted entrance, but not reall...8 years ago
-
I'M BACK! .... at least for now - I've been through a lot the past 6 years. Lately, I've had some strong feelings and thoughts about a few things and need to get them OUT. So in the next fe...8 years ago
-
New "SisterBlog" Announced - I want to start blogging again. I still may update here, but for the more serious and introspective side on the issues a MormonLesbian (now married to a m...8 years ago
-
Window Seats - I’m a little obsessed with window seats on airplanes these days. I stare out of them as if it were my first time on a plane. It never gets old. […]8 years ago
-
-
North Ogden LGBT/SSA Fireside - North Ogden Fireside Every three months a fireside will be held in North Ogden for spiritual and social support to Latter-day Saint men, women and other fa...8 years ago
-
Report on the Second Annual North Star Conference - Two weeks ago North Star held their second annual conference in Provo, UT. Unlike last year, I wasn't heavily involved in the planning or the execution of...
8 years ago -
Bias and Variance - In statistics there is a trade-off between bias and variance. Before I dive into the topic, I'll admit that I don't necessarily understand what it *actual...
8 years ago -
Any Ideas? - I found out today that another one of my friends has decided to act on his feeling towards the same sex and has been for some time. It's interesting to me ...8 years ago
-
Happy Easter! - It's been a couple years, no? Such a gorgeous day here in my world. The kids woke up and followed yarn strung around the house to find their Easter treat...9 years ago
-
Separation - *(Note: I originally wrote this entry months ago while I was very much in the heat of the moment. I decided to wait and share just to be sure things were f...9 years ago
-
Females - Many, many moons ago I was married to a particular man. He was a difficult guy to live with. I figured he was my cross to bear. People say all sorts of mea...9 years ago
-
The Weight of the World - Why does it feel like I'm being crushed by the omnipresence of a few decisions that will not result in the difference between life and death for anyone inv...9 years ago
-
Late Night "Poetry" 4March2015 - Sometimes at night 'poetic' things come to mind. Seems like all the things that swirl around my head actually manage to get coalesced into words. This one...9 years ago
-
My BYU Quarterback - So back in the 90’s I had Spanish classes with a guy on the BYU football team (backup quarterback, but I won’t say who). He was tall, gorgeous, and full ...9 years ago
-
Not-so-lonely V-Day - Dear Journal, I told you in the start not to expect me to write regularly for very long! But I'm back, baby! And on Valentines Day of all days! If you reca...
9 years ago -
Spooky Mormon Hell Dreams - I often have very vivid dreams, and when I wake up they stick with me through the rest of the day. It doesn't happen all the time, but I frequently find my...
9 years ago -
Widening the Divide: Two Monks, The Mormon Church, and Moving Forward - I work with teens. And sometimes they argue. And I help them with conflict resolution. And sometimes they just can’t get over whatever it was that origi...9 years ago
-
No Dead Beat Dolphins - Why don't we hear about Dead Beat Dolphin Daddies? Because they don't exist! To a race such as humans, in which Dads are conspicuously absent more often th...9 years ago
-
I found a great book that I want to share - *The coming out process for anyone is a challenge, but at the same time it's a personal challenge. It's different for everyone. In a recent discussion with...
9 years ago -
to the mormons who are hurting right now - I have a fair amount of liberal LDS friends and this year has been a rough one for them. Today I read a blog post: It Hurts To Be A Mormon Right Now that I...9 years ago
-
-
FIRST MISSONARY - *I remember the first Missionary I ever met*. It was on a bus and he was so excited to tell me about the Gospel. Back then I was an agnostic. We had the ...
9 years ago -
Mi Relato Gay [part 4] - Originalmente se escribió el 29 de octubre del 2013: Léase parte 1 / in English Léase parte 2 / in English Léase parte 3 / in English Léase parte 4 / in Engl...
9 years ago -
He asked. I said yes. - Robert asked me to marry him! Of course I said yes. We were in Albuquerque for the Balloon Fiesta and he got down on one knee and asked if I would marry hi...
9 years ago -
Love in the 21st Century - So this happened. While this is incredible and I am very enthused about the families that will finally be recognized and granted the associated rights, I a...9 years ago
-
New Gay/Mormon Blog - As you can see, I’ve been largely absent from this blog, and that was on purpose. After a few years, I’m picking up the gay/mormon blogging thing again, b...9 years ago
-
Your Haircolor is a Sin! - Imagine being told everyday that someone of your hair color is likely going to be despised by society. From the time your haircolor is first noticeable, ...9 years ago
-
The prodigal blogger - Hello?!? [tap] [tap] Is this thing still on? Is anybody still out there? I was looking at my blogger stats - I can't believe there are people still reading...9 years ago
-
Hamil Diluar Nikah Bukanlah Sebuah Trend - Satu bulan yang lalu teman lama penulis saat kecil dan juga pernah mengenyam pendidikan di sekolah menengah pertama (SMP) yang sama di kota penulis melakuk...9 years ago
-
Where Are You Now? - Well, I don't have much to say here right now. Life will never cease to astound me. This encyclopedia of the changes I've fostered will always be meaning...9 years ago
-
Mornings - Mornings have a unique innocence. It's those serene moments in the dim grey light of the morning, where the dew is fresh on the grass, and the larks and mo...9 years ago
-
Far Between represents my hope - There's a film on the horizon that I think has the potential to advance the conversation around SSA/LGBT Mormons by leaps and bounds. If you'd like to know...9 years ago
-
Life, The Great Illusion - “A wise man, recognizing that the world is but an illusion, does not act as if it is real, so he escapes the suffering.” ...9 years ago
-
-
my new, non-anonymous blog - I'm writing about more important stuff now. If you're interested, please come on over to: Lies We Choose to Believe9 years ago
-
Goals - (From a talk I gave January 12, 2014 in Miami Beach YSA) For many years, I’ve played this game with friends who speak in sacrament. Basically, you give th...
10 years ago -
A Letter to My 10 year old Self - I was reminded, today, of one of my favorite Youtube videos on the *Soul Pancake *channel: Talk to Your 10 year old Self: So, I figured, why not. Let's wr...10 years ago
-
October Conference - Lately, I've been thinking of coming back to the Church. I'm planning a post about this later, but the bottom line is, I'm realizing that Mormonism is my h...10 years ago
-
Entering a new phase! - Yes, it's been years since I've published on here. I still have followers though, so how about a little update? In the years that I have been away, I've do...10 years ago
-
Things Unsaid - I remember a time when I was a child, sometime after my youngest sister was born, when I realized that I was gay. I must have been at least in the 6th grad...10 years ago
-
My Return to Manti - In a few days, my wife and I will go to Manti (where we were married) and perform the sealing of my parents. I will then seal myself and my deceased broth...10 years ago
-
But... who is the girl??? - Kinda felt like posting today. But don't worry world! This time I'm in a much better mood! I had a few bad weeks but I'm feeling a lot better. I needed to...
10 years ago -
-
Choices - The Sunstone Symposium is happening this weekend. I attended the free lecture with my girlfriend, mostly because I wanted to see the short film, "Families...10 years ago
-
-
You Would be Surprised to Know - It’s great having roommates who know I am gay and I can talk to about what I’m going through. It’s even great to be able to talk to them about the cute gu...10 years ago
-
The Straight and Narrow on LA's Sharrows War - What?!?! - If you want to read the article this post is about: "The Straight and Narrow on LA's Sharrows War" So I read the above article, and I couldn't help mysel...11 years ago
-
Easter 2013 - I was the concluding speaker in my ward this Easter Sunday. My Bishop had specifically asked for me to close the semester as the last speaker everyone wo...
11 years ago -
Goosebumps - It's a strange thing to wake up and realize that you are a part of a minority group. That's what hit me during my loooong coming out to myself process. I'd...11 years ago
-
-
This is the Land of Confusion - I rarely take much time to ponder and reflect on life. I thought I'd take a moment and do so now. The big difference between the last time I posted and no...11 years ago
-
Boy Culture - Naturally its the hardest time of year for me. Always has been, and perhaps always maybe. I find myself clinging desperately to some childish hope that m...11 years ago
-
#24 “He descended below all things, in that he comprehended all things that he might be in all and through all things” - Throughout my life, up until very recently, I was totally oblivious to meanings of what I now consider two very important words. One is vulnerability. The ...11 years ago
-
Book review: The Cross in the Closet - I recently read Timothy Kurek's *The Cross in the Closet*. It's the memoir of a 21-year-old, straight, evangelical Christian man who, in order to overcome ...11 years ago
-
Life Changing - When I found out that we would need to do service hours I was nervous. I wasn’t sure when I would find the time. I also tend to get antsy when I’m put ...11 years ago
-
a voice from the dust. - this blog is all but a memory, I have been living my life for a few years now most days are good but most days are also very lonely. owell. I however recen...11 years ago
-
On the Path to a Brighter Day - I have always found it difficult to open myself up to other people. I am the type of person who feels confident talking about anything--unless it is how ...11 years ago
-
Where in the world did that come from? - So I just want to share a quick experience I had today, which was really quite bizarre. So there I was in class and then some guy sits next to...11 years ago
-
Oh Conference. - Every 6 months the church has the blessing and privilege of instructing its members and the world through General Conference, as more appropriate God sp...11 years ago
-
The Beginning - I really don't know where to begin in order to get the jumble of my thoughts out of my head and down onto this piece of paper, so I guess I'll just start w...
11 years ago -
Anxious - It's taken me a long time to admit to this, partly because I simply didn't realize it about myself. I'm an anxious person. The best relief to my anxiety se...
11 years ago -
Traveling to a City Near You? - *By Mister Curie* As an update, I recently finished up with my clinical rotations and am now applying to residency programs. I'll be traveling to interview...11 years ago
-
New Art Blog Posts - I have recently published a series of blog posts on my art blog about spiritual themes in contemporary art. Check it out: The Sacred Experience in Art Spac...11 years ago
-
The Gay Lifestyle - More than once when talking with a person who I wasn't out to, he or she has said, "I don't hate gay people. I just don't approve of the gay lifestyle." T...11 years ago
-
Mischef Managed - Dear friends, I've decided its a good time to end this blog and move on. It will remain for a time only as an archive. More current thoughts and frustrat...11 years ago
-
Some Personal Refelections - I'm 41 now. I've tried my best to be faithful my whole life, I often feel overlooked or not included in a lot of church things. Recently in CA there has be...11 years ago
-
I have a new crush! - So, this is kind of dumb. But I was in the mood for a less-serious post. Have you all seen that commercial for SunSweet's Plum Amazins with that New Z...
12 years ago -
… a scarlet letter … - The burnished red letter on his chest marked him as a glutton and the citizens reviled him, throwing upon him their kitchen scraps, though he wasted away. ...12 years ago
-
In which Brett Explores the Dark Side of Sexual Repression - There is a trend, I think, toward believing that choosing celibacy is a legitimate option. At the very least, there seems to be a trend toward feeling like...12 years ago
-
-
My Sojourn into a world of Authenticity and Honesty - Well, it’s been a great couple of months since Thanksgiving and I’ve had a wonderful few months of making new friends and dating. Last night I viewed an ...
12 years ago -
New Facebook Support Group - My husband and I have been somewhat frustrated in trying to find a support group for mixed-orientation marriages that seem relevant to our situation (young...12 years ago
-
A Little Past Late to the Now - Things have drastically changed in the past year and a half. I continued to do hair school and finished in March of 2011. I am now a licensed Cosmetologist...12 years ago
-
My Decision to Destroy God’s Plan - Rather than attending Church this weekend, I decided to spend time on other worthwhile activities such as enjoying quality time with friends. While I don’t...12 years ago
-
-
To End a Dialogue - Dear Sentry, I know that I promised you that we would continue our journey together. However, I feel that it is time to end this particular blog. Let's be ...12 years ago
-
Keeping a Secret vs. Protecting Oneself. - On Friday I had a former co-worker-friend call me. He went on to tell me that our old mutual boss had texted him and mentioned he saw something on my Face...12 years ago
-
-
-
My Mom talking about my Grandpa. - Someday, when I get where I'm going, we're gonna have a good little reunion. "When he was younger, he was always making or mending or trying to fix thing...12 years ago
-
Thankful for all the guys here :) - I'm in a new stage of coming out to myself now.....the drama and the self loathing is largely dissapating. It's been because of meeting or being influenced...12 years ago
-
Turn It Off! - "Turn it off! Like a light switch! Just go click!" "Imagine that your brain is made of tiny boxes and find the box that is gay and CRUSH IT!!!" Both of ...12 years ago
-
Fall 2011 Preview: Monday - As many of you know, chedner and I enjoy our TV quite a bit. This series will look at the new network shows. With any luck, this series will show I hav...12 years ago
-
:) - So i really do neglect this blog.. But great News. My Boyfriend took me to Bali for our 1st Aniversary in May... And I Proposed and he said yes. Were get...12 years ago
-
-
An Open Letter To Single Gay Men - I got a letter a while back from a guy wondering if he should tell the girl he was interested in dating about his attraction to men. I'd like to make my re...12 years ago
-
My Sanity (Insanity) - I don't know why I do this, but I am a worrier when it comes to relationships. I worry that I say the wrong things or do the wrong things and that my belov...12 years ago
-
The strongest person I've ever known. - My mother was an amazing woman. In her life she had so many struggles with health and depression but through it all she made sure her children knew they w...
12 years ago -
I told you so - Remember when I said I could never be a gay Mormon West Virginian? Well, here's the proof. Now, I love Lady Gaga. I also love Country Roads. In fac...
13 years ago -
Prayer - I know it's been a while since I've blogged but I was thinking today about prayer and I was hoping to get some input and thoughts about it. Up until I crea...13 years ago
-
Rd to Authenticity: Winter in NY and My First Relationship - In fall 2008 The GRAD support group had seen an increase of new faces during this time it was now more that jus Kay, Chris, and I. We gained a few more p...13 years ago
-
The Beginning of the End - Now that was a little dramatic, wasn't it? It's sort of correct, though. The bishop of the local ward came and paid Derrick and I a visit last night. We le...13 years ago
-
Answering a Friend's Question about Faith in the Church - Below is an email response I sent to a friend. He's a great friend, so I enjoyed thinking about this topic. XXXXXX, I have been thinking about your qu...13 years ago
-
Finding Hope - I went to church last Sunday to find hope. I've been down since I haven't heard anything back from the schools I interviewed at. I thought that all of my i...13 years ago
-
22 Truths - 1. I met my twin. His name is Mary. And so is mine. But you're not allowed to call me that. Unless you're Mary. 2. For the first time ever, I was "that guy...13 years ago
-
New Job - We have not been very faithful at updating our blog! If you missed pictures of the new apartment, you can see them here. We love the neighborhood and the n...13 years ago
-
Taking a Closer Look at Furniture and Other Home Items - When people talk about furniture, they usually mean home furniture like dining tables and china hutch for the dining room, Free standing Kitchen Cabinets, C...13 years ago
-
Omega (& Alpha) - I'm done. I'm no longer Mormon (officially), or In The Closet, or plagued with the Dichotomy between homosexuality and the church. There's no longer any re...13 years ago
-
-
Blasphemous Brassieres - There is a funny thread at RfM about wearing garments. One of the men posed a question about whether or not it's true that endowed mormon women are told to...13 years ago
-
Tired - I am exhausted. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. Spiritually. And I'm being faced with a horribly difficult decision right now. Please throw some mag...13 years ago
-
-
Dear Mormon Friends - Dear Mormon friends, Please don't ever use the phrase "I'm sorry you feel that way" ever again. Thank you. Much love, Captain Midnight13 years ago
-
Europe, Moving, and Holden - Don't you ever wonder when life wont be so complicated? I do all the time! Since I have written last I have been busy with basically starting a whole new l...
13 years ago -
Hawn Key - "All mankind love a lover." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson I've been digesting what Packer said for a few days now. I have three brief insights I'd like to share wi...
13 years ago -
An Explanation Why - The reason I haven't updated my blog is this: This blog was created for me to share personal feelings in an anonymous way. When I started going to therapy...
13 years ago -
Thank You President Packer for Another Nail in my Closet Door. - I'm stunned. I'm saddened. From the very beginning of President Packer's talk there was a frosty chill sweeping down from the Conference pulpit. Even his...
13 years ago -
So I Met This Guy... - A few months ago, I met this really awesome guy. He's cute, funny, intelligent, kind, genuine, hard-working, and gorgeous to boot. Also, he's in med schoo...
13 years ago -
So this is how rumors begin - Ever heard that Steve Martin is Mormon? Or Alice Cooper? Or Christina Aguilera? Yeah, well, this is how these types of rumors get started, except this one ...13 years ago
-
BRB - I, Beloved Boyd, am a Gay Mormon Boy and everything I say here is the truth to the best of my knowledge: So sorry that I have to disappoint you but I promi...13 years ago
-
Joy in the Journey - In my ongoing exploration (through thoughts and discussion) of topics such as beliefs, love, and life choices, answers come very rarely. If there's one co...
13 years ago -
THANK YOU DEAN A. BREWER! - I just came across an article with a pen name, "Dean A. Brewer", that touched my heart. He talks of the paradox between his attraction to other men and his...13 years ago
-
What the church does for people. - Since I left the church, the staunch and zealous opinions I held in my youth have given way to something I think is much more practical. Now I consider mys...14 years ago
-
A Very Marry Christmas - Todd and I decided to spend Christmas Eve at home alone. We had already been to several holiday parties in the past few weeks and we decided we wanted some...14 years ago
-
Sweet & tender little commercial That I wanted to share - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mxqGOnvU6yI&feature=player_embedded That video is really full of the hope of all humanity with a great message to not fear. ...14 years ago
-
Goodnight Gracie - It should be pretty obvious by now that I don't blog much anymore and I don't read much of anyone else's blog. Life is busy and this blog is no longer the ...14 years ago
-
Being Gay and Mormon - Gays and Mormons are among the most misunderstood minorities in the United States. In most neighborhoods across the country, if either one were to move in,...14 years ago
-
Proposition 8 Trial Summaries - The Proposition 8 trial wrapped up this week and summaries (of sorts) have been issued by both sides. The American Foundation for Equal Rights, the organiz...14 years ago
-
-
More family weirdness - So today my sister-in-law told me that my niece(not her daughter) had seen my profile picture on Facebook and asked her parents why I had my friend(actuall...14 years ago
-
Girl Cooties - I've not been to a Mormon singles event in years. Until last night … I live in Salt Lake City and I'm of a certain age. Which means I have great LDS frie...14 years ago
-
Is This My Last Battle? - But the Glorious One bent down his golden head and touched my forehead with his tongue and said, Son, thou art welcome. But I said, Alas, Lord, I am no son...14 years ago
-
what came first....the SSA chicken or the gay egg??? - Sometimes I wonder if I was "born this way" or if my struggle with SSA is a product of my early years?!?! The infamous "nature vs. nurture" question, I kno...14 years ago
-
Just Gay - The Wicked Witch never died- she just sneaked away with her Fiyero in the end. I am officially done with BYU and the LDS church. I graduated in April, and...
14 years ago -
Disgusted - If the me from one year ago met me today, he would be disgusted. I've become everything I hated in a matter of weeks. I'm not happy so I'm filling my life ...
14 years ago -
Immediate Reaction - I needed to capture this feeling, because I don't know what it'll have turned into tomorrow.... 2:34am Connie Hey kid, are you ok? Robbie yeah... talki...14 years ago
-
DEATH IN THE DESERT - EVERETT REUSS my long lost hero....LOST to generations of nomads, misfits, monkeywrenchers and adventurers. Found on a fluke of circumstances. I have spent...
14 years ago -
Hi, I'm Wyatt - I use to care A LOT about anyone knowing my identity in association with this blog, but I don't have any reason to hide anymore. In fact, I owe it to myse...
15 years ago -
On a serious note... - My House of Cards Constructing a house of cards can often be difficult and painfully disappointing. The builder often exhales an audible sigh of relie...
15 years ago -
An insightful interview of a good friend of mine - The following is a 45 minute interview of a good friend of mine. He is a very active gay Mormon and talks about his experience with "coming out", his persp...15 years ago
-
Is it just me? - I think that maybe I like to overanalyze some things, trying to tag things to a definition or tie something down to a category so that I can make better se...15 years ago
-
How To Be A Gay Mormon Blogger - Some of you may be asking yourselves, “But, Clint, how can I be a gay Mormon blogger?” Why with my new patented 21 step program, you too can be blogging y...15 years ago
-
I can feel it! - We CAN do amazing things in this country. Come strip naked with me and dance in the streets. We'll march up to the White House and cheer and cheer. Do yo...15 years ago
